I really am going to lose that weight. I really am going to run that marathon. I really am going to tell the people in my life how important they are to me. I really am going to climb that mountain. I really am going to conquer my fears. I really am going to do it!

Tomorrow. I’ll do it tomorrow.

Tomorrow is a better day, really. I need to make sure I have all my research done before I do it. I can’t fail. What will people think if I fail? I can’t have them thinking I am one of those losers who actually goes out and tries something, learning from my mistakes then tries it again. I can’t fail and learn from it. I need to make sure I wait till the moment is just perfect to start. I need to go buy a few more books about dieting and fitness before I set foot in a gym and actually try it. I need to find the perfect marathon training program before I hit the pavement. I need to read more self help books before I start actually trying to change myself. The more time I take to research, the more knowledge I will have. I need to do more research.

Tomorrow. I’ll do it tomorrow.

Tomorrow is the best day for me. I can’t do it today. Today is Tuesday. Who starts changing on a tuesday? Wait, I am going out to dinner tomorrow night with the guys. I can start a diet then go binge drink and eat shitty food.That is setting myself up for failing. I can’t fail. I can’t start tomorrow. And there are plenty of marathons. Why do I have to do this next one? And being overweight, moody and having no drive to do anything isn’t really hurting my relationships, so it really isn’t too bad. No sense in changing that. Mountains aren’t going anywhere. Fears help keep me safe in my comfort zone. It is too much work taking it all on at once. I can’t handle it. I will stress out, and fail. I can’t fail. What will people think about me if I take too much on and won’t be able to handle it. I need to wait till the time is better.

Tomorrow. I’ll do it tomorrow.

Tomorrow really is a better day. I am tired today. I am very busy person and hardly have time for me. I mean, come on – I work 9-5. I don’t have time. I need to sleep. I need to eat. I need to spend time watching my favorite TV shows. I just don’t have the time to deal with all these changes. I have a lot going on. I can’t push myself. What would happen if I actually succeeded? What would people think of me then? If I succeed, people are just going to expect more out of me then I just have to push myself farther, creating even more success in my life, and then set expectations even higher. That is way to hard. If I just play my life safe and never experience anything or never push myself out of what I think I can actually do, I will just skim through life without really disappointing people, mainly myself. I can’t fail, but I can’t succeed. I just need to stay and survive. Plus, I can bitch and complain about the long hours I work, or how I really am trying to lose weight, even though I eat crap, and that I really am trying to better myself, but just can’t find the time. That way, people will think I am actually trying, when in fact, I am just waiting for the right time. They don’t have to know I am waiting. That is it, I just need to skim through life and complain.

Tomorrow. I’ll do it tomorrow.

Tomorrow is better, really when you think about it. Tomorrow, something tragic could happen to me, or some one close to me.  I won’t have to worry about all the things I wish I would have said or done or the emotion that goes along with those things. I won’t have to worry about telling my family they are my life and blood and I would literally put my life on the line for them. I don’t know if I can handle how they would react to that. I may regret not calling my dad telling him that he is everything I strive to be in a man and that I hope one day I could be 1/4 of the father that he was to me. He may get too emotional and want to show affection back. I won’t have to worry about telling my mom she is one of the strongest people I have ever met and she is a saint for not only raising me, but for the decisions she made in her life. I can’t tell my wife that ever since I met her, my life hasn’t been the same. If I tell her that meeting her gave my life purpose, drive, and something to look forward too, she may actually want to actually live out the passion we have in our life. I won’t have to worry about trying to be the friend that my friend thinks I am. The friend that would literally give the shirt of his back if they need it. I like my shirts. If I wait till tomorrow, I will have the ultimate excuse of not doing or saying all those things I always wanted to do. Sure, I may have a little regret and a little sadness about not pushing myself out of my comfort zone, but at least I don’t have to deal with the consequences of actually showing my true emotions on how I feel toward people. That could just be weird.

Tomorrow. I’ll do it tomorrow.

Tomorrow is really the best day for me. I need to time to read more Tony Robbins to get motivated, then I need to eat a nice meal, then relax a bit, then ensure I get a good nights of sleep. Then I will wake up tomorrow ready to change everything I ever wanted to change. I will be that person that I know I am capable of, just not right now. I will wake up, ready to change. Tomorrow. Tomorrow is better for me.

Tomorrow. I’ll do it tomorrow.